I lost my brother in 2001. At first, it didn't really hit me... Then, I kept having pretty depressing thoughts.... It was tough, but out of it all I got a whole new out look on my life. I realized a lot of things I took for granted were slipping by, and a lot of the things I thought were imporantant, really weren't. It's hard for me to say anything that will make you feel any better, just know that you have the support of people here, and you will get through this. Right now is the time to be there for the rest of your family... I know it sucks, and it is really sad, but you will move on. It does get easier, and the one good thing that always happens from a tragedy like this is your whole family and close friends will come together for each other... it really rekindles your idea of the human spirit. Best regards man, I'm wishing you all the best,
-Nick