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As some of you already know from over on FB, my biological father finally got in contact with my family earlier this week and my initial reaction was a mind clouded with angered, sadness, and confusion that affected me quite a bit at work on Thursday. Apparently, he was down here not too long ago for a funeral and got in contact w/someone that led him to calling my mother's old high school. From there he did some research of Grandpa's lineage online and that, somehow, led him to accessing our home number and when my aunt spoke to him, he dropped his phone when she told him about me. It came as a shock to him that my mom somehow managed to keep being pregnant a secret to him, which caused much of the sadness and confusion I was feeling on Wednesday.
Well, after giving it some though yesterday while at work, I finally decided to call him yesterday when I got home from work and we spoke for over an hour about life, upbringings, and how he met my mother and how he kept searching for her over the years despite misspelling her name as "Curtisk". He went to school at South Carolina and currently lives in Decatur, GA and has 2 other sons, one's 25 and the other's 30 (I'm 27) and he also went to USC (excuse me, S CAR or Sakerlina) and I enjoyed talking to him, but.......
I'm not sure we'll even get past addressing each other by first name and he might as well be a random-ass FB friend or some drinking buddy for happy hour for I thought he was either a deadbeat dad or dead for the longest and I once thought about looking for him, but said the hell with it and went back to looking up to Grandpa all the way up until his death last May as he served as the undisputed father figure in my life. I feel absolutely no connection to him and will not rack my brain trying to answer a plethora of questions surrounding this bombshell that I didn't intend to ever experience. So, for now, I suppose calling once a month is a start and even though I technically have 2 half-brothers by his account, I still consider my an only child in my family and, apparently, it's a cycle as Grandpa didn't discover his dad back in the day until his mid-late 20s, but at least he got along w/his half-brother (my favorite great-uncle, btw). There was some talk about taking a DNA test at some point to verify this ordeal, but for now, it's not like any of us are welcoming him into our lives w/open arms, so the distance works.
All these papas being rolling stones, I tell ya. Feel fee to share your tales of absent fatherhood if you have any.
Well, after giving it some though yesterday while at work, I finally decided to call him yesterday when I got home from work and we spoke for over an hour about life, upbringings, and how he met my mother and how he kept searching for her over the years despite misspelling her name as "Curtisk". He went to school at South Carolina and currently lives in Decatur, GA and has 2 other sons, one's 25 and the other's 30 (I'm 27) and he also went to USC (excuse me, S CAR or Sakerlina) and I enjoyed talking to him, but.......
I'm not sure we'll even get past addressing each other by first name and he might as well be a random-ass FB friend or some drinking buddy for happy hour for I thought he was either a deadbeat dad or dead for the longest and I once thought about looking for him, but said the hell with it and went back to looking up to Grandpa all the way up until his death last May as he served as the undisputed father figure in my life. I feel absolutely no connection to him and will not rack my brain trying to answer a plethora of questions surrounding this bombshell that I didn't intend to ever experience. So, for now, I suppose calling once a month is a start and even though I technically have 2 half-brothers by his account, I still consider my an only child in my family and, apparently, it's a cycle as Grandpa didn't discover his dad back in the day until his mid-late 20s, but at least he got along w/his half-brother (my favorite great-uncle, btw). There was some talk about taking a DNA test at some point to verify this ordeal, but for now, it's not like any of us are welcoming him into our lives w/open arms, so the distance works.
All these papas being rolling stones, I tell ya. Feel fee to share your tales of absent fatherhood if you have any.